diorlaus

> emotional distress

Two weeks have gone, and my sleeping habit seem to be abnormal. Yessh. I’m an insomniac.

Wrong! I'm slowly learning the truth: I’m emotionally depressed. School this week was very unproductive, and decisions made were far beyond acceptable.

I haven't been my normal self lately. I drank a bottle or two beers at least on an ordinary day. My breakfast would consist of Pringles and my lunch would commence at around 5 pm. Dinner? At 9 pm at least. I'd be awake the whole evening, probably just staring at my computer, listening to my ipod or sending text forwards to people. But most of the time, I would be thinking about my life and my friends. What has happened? I don’t know, for I have no authority to dictate the order of things.

At school, I’ve been absent to my classes wherein I had perfect attendance. I participated in class just once in a while instead of participating 'all the time'. I'd prefer to stare at the professor rather than to write down important notes. My designs became 'unusually ordinary' and my inputs are now 'senseless'. I had less enthusiasm in school than before.

This is not me. I am emotionally distracted.

In my whole life I’ve never experienced such distress. But I have nothing to do... only much to worry about.

So where does this lead me to?

--(yes... its 4am and i'm still wide awake for nothing)

posted by .::littlepunyone::. @ 4:08 AM