diorlaus

> I'm not giving up

My friend is leaving for America tomorrow morning indefinitely. At some point I wasn’t really sad that she’s leaving. I’m actually glad knowing that leaving would be for her own good… her future. Time spent with her was indeed limited, and I wish that we never really had that misunderstanding before, but it’s all good now. I’m optimistic for my friend.

Late today, I was able to tell my true feelings for slok. It wasn’t expected, but he asked me know why I’m misbehaving like this. He has the right to know anyway. It was such a relief that was able to get it off my system. And now, I truly understand what I need to be right now to him and to the people affected. He’s my bestfriend now, and whatever happens: no strings attached. We’re cool. That’s all that matters.

I guess all of these things happen for a reason. I should stop hurting my gentleman and continue on what we had before. I guess that’s the best thing to do. I wouldn’t replace three long years because I’m blinded on what really is “us”. I know he wants me back, and believe me when I say that I’ll do anything to love him back. He’s important to me. I don’t want to hurt him anymore. Three years is senseless if I give up on him now.

posted by .::littlepunyone::. @ 11:41 PM